17:22 - Tuesday, Mar. 06, 2007
And I'm Gonna Miss My Man & Fur Babies SO Much!
I might have slept a total of two hours last night. I haven't eaten since lunch yesterday.
I got a call last night that Daddy II (aka Jim) is in ICU. Kind of freaking out. Didn't go to work today - all distraught trying to figure out what to do. Man, if I had a license and a car, I would have been there by now, but in any case, Hank is taking me to the airport right away. I got a one way ticket & I will come home when I feel somewhat better about this.
This fucking sucks.
Please, pray for Jim for me. Pray for his family and for me. If you know him, you know he is more than a wonderful man, I just don't have words to describe...
I don't have much for words at all right now - I feel like puking - I've been having a day-long-lasting anxiety attack.
I hope I can handle this right. I hope I can handle this better than I did when Dad and/or Papa was sick. I have to be positive & I have to remember that I am not only there for Jim, and for myself, but for Grace, Larry & Tracy (His wife & kids) and I am there to be a helping hand and a shoulder to cry on - NOT to be a burden or to cry on theirs.
God, give me the strength...
And please, bless Jim.
