08:56 - Tuesday, Nov. 07, 2006
Bitter-Sweet
So Hank picked me up last night & we just hung out & chatted till Heroes was done taping so we could watch it. then we watched it & had some soup for a late dinner. What an awesome show. I can't wait till next Monday!
So we went to bed to watch a little more TV before sleep & all the animals joined us (as always). Frankie & Cupid have been getting along very well, surprisingly, because she was so scared of him at first & hid for so long. Dusty was always okay with him, and not scared, but still hisses or growls at him here & there. They just pretty much leave each other alone & mind their own business. Frankie & Cupid are pretty close though & like to sit together & sniff eachother etc. So Cupid was laying there & Frankie came up & started licking her. She was purring like crazy. It was so cute. Then he rested his head down on her back & she got up as if to move and he put his paws on her to lay her back down & tell her to stay there. They sat there like that for a minute or so, happy as can be and we thought it was so darn cute... until Frankie started humping her! OMG! That was so weird! We stopped him right away but couldn't help but laugh our asses off. Cupid didn't seem to mind at all! It's weird because we've never seen him try to hump anything or anyone else before, so I am not sure where this cmae from! Anyway, it was funny. They just layed down after that & went to sleep. I hope Cupid didn't feel too violated! Haha... I am sure she was fine. He was kind of humping the side of her, not like from behind or anything. Not that it matters. Oh, and Dusty saw and growled a little... wanted to protect his big sister. Too funny. Isn't it great having this family of animals?!?
This morning Hank didn't take him out. Frankie was sleeping so he figured, why wake him when I'll be up to let him out in an hour anyway. Plus, we talked yesterday about it and as much as it would be nice to have him on a schedule so he knows that sometime between 5:30 & 6:30am he is going out, we don't want him toooo used to that so that we don't have to get up at that time on Saturday & Sunday. Yesterday he left & let him sleep & I took him out when I git up. He didn't really want to, but he did... no problems really. But this morning I called him & he didn't want to come. So I went to pick him up & he peed on the bed! AHHHHH! He has stopped this piddling business pretty much altogether... WTF was that?!? I guess he REALLY didn't want to get up & go out - but too bad - he has to before I go for the day! So I put his nose in it and told him he was bad & put him out. Guess who's washing bedding tonight?!?
So once he came in he was all sad looking and has these soulful eyes that made me feel bad, but still, I had to stand my ground & show him that is bad & I am upset with him. I wiped his paws & didn't talk to him or really pay any attention to him while I got ready. When I was ready to go I put his treat in his kennel & started putting my coat on & gathering my things. I looked at him like it was time and without me having to say anything or pick him up or anything, he got up from the couch & went straight into his kennel & laid down without a peep. I told him he was such a good boy & praised him & left. I guess that was his way of saying he was sorry & he was making it up to me by going to his bed all by himself. Awwwhhh. I am glad he is learning that's where he goes when we're gone & it is not such a bad thing. So that was nice.
In other news...
I have very mixed feelings right now... bitter/sweet to be cliché.
Booty-Eh got offered an Associate Adjuster position. Now first things first, she is my friend & I want the best for her & I am extremely happy & excited for her. It is great news. She is more trained in Human Resources and ulimately wants to work in that field, but it is still a good place for her to gain experiance etc. with the corporation and can keep applying for HR while she is at it. I have not found out yet, but I assume it is at the Claim Centre that is mostly French so being bilingual is definitely an asset. I don't know that for sure though, I'll let you know as soon as I find out, but I think I recall the posting for that position being at the Pembina location near my house.
So here's my problem. Why the fuck wasn't I contacted for at least an interview? I have the insurance courses (like I said, she has a bunch of HR courses, but my goal is in adjusting so I took the insurance courses that are "required" (so they say)) to be a successful applicant. I got 96.5 on the qualification test. Does that not count for anything? (She did very well too, I think an 82). But where did I go wrong here not even to be considered? She has only been here 4 months (I think) longer than me. I applied too & think I am just as qualified... at least. I will understand if it's at the Bilingual claim centre, because she has that on me for sure, but otherwise, I just don't get the logic and I will be checking into it.
Don't get me wrong, I am not in any way bitter at her. I am happy & proud for her. I wish her all the best. But I bet she'd be a little bothered if I got an HR job & she didn't get contacted at all for it.
Make sense?
I am just waiting to find out from her a little more, like what claim centre etc. I'll keep posting.
I hate feeling like this. I am so happy for her & offered to make her dinner tonight to celebrate... and I don't want to show her at all that I am hurt & upset & frustrated, because number one, it is not her fault, it is not directed at her, and number two, it is HER time to be happy & celebrate, not a time to have a pity-party for me.
FUCK.
So I vent to you, dear diary... that's allowed, right?!?
:-( I feel like I am never going to move up in this place...
My eyes are getting all teary now. I could just bawl. I better go to the washroom before something triggers me & I do.
I have to calm down. I am so upset.
Well, I just found out that yes, it is at that claim centre so her language definately helped.
That's what I am gonna stick to anyway...
Maybe I'll talk to my supervisor someday in the future & see if he can confirm that is why I was not in the running at all.
For now I'll chalk it up to being my own fault for not finishing French in school & concentrate on being happy for her instead of sorry for myself.
SO...
Thanks for letting me vent... I guess I am just frustrated & discouraged about my job... but my time will come too.
Her time was now, and it is awesome, because she just bought her house & is really starting her future all by herself. Good for her.
